I remember that day...the day he came and took my son from me. I try and try to make it go away but it will go with me to my grave. It's something that nobody can fully grasp, no matter how much I try to get it across. I've had friends turn on me when I needed them the most through this...and for that, i will never forget any of you.
I heard a knock at my door when I was getting ready to vacuum. Lyric was sleeping on the couch while the girls were watching max and ruby. I opened the door as the cops told me there was a restaining order/divorce papers for me. I was okay with that, then they had to explain that they were there for Lyric as well. My heart fell right out of my chest...I paniced. What do you when someone says you have to say goodbye to your 5 week old son? I had 15 minutes left with him..I packed his things and got him ready for Aaron to take him. I walked outside with him shaking, wanting to run as fast as I could. I remember the cops told me it was time..I just couldnt do it. Chloe and Brooklyn watching through the window devistated me...my girls had to watch their brother being ripped out of their mothers arms.I repeated "dont worry,youll be back here mister,i will fight until i'm 6 feet under,i promise". I started to buckle as Aaron walked up to get him. I sat there and the only words that I had for him is "you make sure you hug him and tell him you love him EVERYDAY". It was time, I handed him over, i turn and look at the police as they had tears in their eyes. Aaron walks away and I fall to the ground..it had to have been 107 degrees that day. I remember the smell of the hot concrete...I just layed there bawling..I didnt want to get up. My heart was literally ripped out of my chest and taken back to ventura..
No mother should have to say goodbye to their child..I pray to god nobody has to feel that pain. I've fought like hell through this, and I will always. Say what you want, judge me for all I care...I would walk through fire for the rest of my life as long as Lyric is at the end of it. He will always fuel that fire..always.
I heard a knock at my door when I was getting ready to vacuum. Lyric was sleeping on the couch while the girls were watching max and ruby. I opened the door as the cops told me there was a restaining order/divorce papers for me. I was okay with that, then they had to explain that they were there for Lyric as well. My heart fell right out of my chest...I paniced. What do you when someone says you have to say goodbye to your 5 week old son? I had 15 minutes left with him..I packed his things and got him ready for Aaron to take him. I walked outside with him shaking, wanting to run as fast as I could. I remember the cops told me it was time..I just couldnt do it. Chloe and Brooklyn watching through the window devistated me...my girls had to watch their brother being ripped out of their mothers arms.I repeated "dont worry,youll be back here mister,i will fight until i'm 6 feet under,i promise". I started to buckle as Aaron walked up to get him. I sat there and the only words that I had for him is "you make sure you hug him and tell him you love him EVERYDAY". It was time, I handed him over, i turn and look at the police as they had tears in their eyes. Aaron walks away and I fall to the ground..it had to have been 107 degrees that day. I remember the smell of the hot concrete...I just layed there bawling..I didnt want to get up. My heart was literally ripped out of my chest and taken back to ventura..
No mother should have to say goodbye to their child..I pray to god nobody has to feel that pain. I've fought like hell through this, and I will always. Say what you want, judge me for all I care...I would walk through fire for the rest of my life as long as Lyric is at the end of it. He will always fuel that fire..always.
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