dear lyric.

Lyric.



Theres so many things I want to tell you...things I wish I could tell you to your face. If I dont see you again there are some things I'd like for you to know.



I want you to know you will always be my son...always know someone is out there thinking about you everyday. I want you to smile and live your life FOR YOU, dont let anyone tell you different. I want you to know you have 2 sisters and a brother here, that wouldve loved to have you with them...you'll always remain their blood. I want to know I never gave up on you...that I never wanted this. I dont want you to blame yourself or anybody else for that matter...I wish I couldve been there everyday to see you grow. I've missed so much, things I wish I couldve held your hand through. Youre so special to me, you will always be a special person Lyric. I wonder what you will look like when you get my age, if you'll be a better person than me. I hope you dont settle for less than you deserve, you deserve the world. I want to save you from anything that could hurt you..it hurts my stomach knowing you will get hurt someday. When that someday comes, know that its okay to cry and feel pain. It cant rain forever...things can always look up monkey. I remember when you came out, the first thing you did was grab onto my face with those warm little hands...and give me this look, like as if you were so content being skin to skin with me. That moment I met you, you stole my heart. I'm sure you will hear bad things about me, and some of them might be true...I loved your dad with everything I had. I just couldnt be the wife he wanted me to be..and thats okay with me now. I dont regret him or you, you both have made me such a strong person. I'm happy he loves you the way he does, it makes me feel content knowing you have him. I want to be there..but right now, it has to be this way. I promise you I will keep trying, and if I never see you again...my heart will always beat for you Lyric Leigh.